31st MARCH 2011.

Had a great workout with Andy and Kent this morning. Thank you very much guys, for bringing me to the gym. Honestly, I really appreciate you guys support. At first, I thought hitting the gym is something hard and scary. But after the training, my mind twist. I've fallen in love with the fitness exercise. That's lovely. I'm looking forward to the next workout, though. CAN'T WAIT!

Before that, I would like to apologize for causing any trouble. Sometimes, I feel like I'm useless and I have to admit that I'm suck. So, please do forgive me.

Also, I had quite a lot of fun today, hanging out with friends, chatting and eating. Especially when I was at the party, Kent's 20th Birthday Party! It was AWESOME! Just don't know how to describe. The party was full of laughter. In common, when you're seeing everyone else laughing, automatically you will start to join the party and start laughing yourself. And, seeing people laugh brings joy to my heart.

Once again, I wish Kent Lee,

Happy Birthday n' Have A Blast!!!
&

Thank You My Friends For The Day!!!

GROUP STUDY!

Do you like to sit alone in a quiet place pondering on the solutions in your study? Or you would favor discussing the subjects with several friends? Some people choose to study alone, enjoying peaceful surrounding without being disturbed; others, however, would rather join a group of people, sharing different ideas with them. As far as I am concerned, I prefer both, depending on what kind of situation.

Just like today, I can't believe I just did my revision in a group with my friends. This is what I call "GROUP STUDY"! That's AWESOME! Though, there would be a little bit of chit-chat, but that is good. What I mean is, sometimes you'll get bored if you keep on reading the same thing without giving yourself a break.

What I would say is, we should do this more often. Honestly, I love group study very much^^

Droopy eyelids, heavy eyes, tired or stoned looking.

Hello guys, I've got an odd and very annoying symptom not sure if it's related to social anxiety, Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) or something else. No matter how well I rest, my eyes get heavy and droopy at times especially when I'm out around people. I recently noticed this when I was looking at my face in public in a mirror. I look like kinda stoned or very tired because my eyelids look half closed. It seems like kinda droopy eyelids. I'm guessing this is happening when I don't get enough sleep or maybe I sleep too much.

Whatever the cause is, it's very annoying and depressive. Fortunately I'm not a very pessimistic guy, otherwise I'd be dead by now. Hehe~

Has anyone had this issue? Do you have an idea what this is about? It would be nice to hear your ideas or experiences. Best wishes and good luck guys.

SMILEY SATURDAY♥

I thought today would be another boring Saturday. As usual, every Saturday morning, I'll go to campus for cheer training. Before I go, I ate a green apple as to pristine clean my intestine. Just don't know why, I was so excited this morning. Maybe because of my happy hormones.

The best part of the day. The Gathering for C.C.C's members. I would call them brothers and sisters. I actually felt the warm in my heart. It's like how wonderful it is when you and your friends are gathered around, having dinner, playing cards, watching movies and so. More one, I'm so glad to meet you guys, especially those who are from the my hometown. Do you know how lovely it is when you are meeting someone who speaks the same language? They are just like your family.

Time flies, time passes. I hope there will be another gathering. Though, there will be an event held on this coming Saturday and Sunday, but too bad, I can't attend. So sad.

Seriously, I'm gonna miss their laughter♥

Doomsday? Or Just a Restless Planet?

Belly Burst!

Help me, please... someone help me! I feel like I'm anorexic. It's so scary. I don't wanna be like this, and who honestly want to carry this creepy homo disease. Ever since about two weeks ago, I've been losing 1kilogram per week. WTH! It happened to be abnormal. Something in my tummy, rolling and moving and tunneling. Seriously, I want to gain weight. I've tried to eat a lot a lot of food, junk food, fast food and everything as long as it is edible. But, it turns out that, I have this feeling, the fear, I'm afraid of taking to much of it. I know I really need more food on my bones and stuff, too bad... I can't take too much of it, compared to last time, I can actually eat 3 McDonald's Spicy Chicken McDeluxe Burgers at once.

So please, can anyone help me?!! Guide me the proper way of having a proper diet, not to lose weight but gain weight.

So lonely...

My heart is so empty and it's filled with darkness. I don't know how to express it but I do want to type out what's my exact feeling. I never know this gonna happen to me. It's all about today, the "DARK THURSDAY". I was staying at home the whole day, without going anywhere, not even outside my room. When I woke up, it's nearly evening. All my housemates were in campus, so no one at home except for me. Just suddenly, everything blackout and it's dark. For a second, I thought it's just a small matter, it won't be long. As time ticked away second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour, I started to think of something strange. I wasn't afraid of the dark, but I did matter about staying at home alone in the dark. I was so emotional, the devil been playing tricks on my mind. Should there be anyone who really cares about, at least a call, at least a call will do. I wanted to call but I don't know why, something wrong with my phone. I can't call out, even worst, there was a stranger kept calling me. I was scared, really really scared. Alone in the dark, what am I supposed to do? I need a friend... a hug... someone to talk... a companion... :'(

Dear Muscles~

Dear Muscles,

I'm really sorry. From the bottom of my heart, I would say, I didn't mean to hurt 'you' that way. I know it's really hard for 'you' to accept the pain. Please, it's only twice a week. I know 'you' can do it, I know 'you' will get use to it. BE TOUGH! BE STRONG! Today's pain, it will heal soon, just a few days time. Trust me, it will! Do remember the phrase, "NEVER SAY NEVER!" KEEP IT UP!

SAY NO! NO!

I haven't revised at all, ever since the semester started. GOSH! I shouldn't be wasting my time fooling around or keeping myself at home like the poop waiting to come out from the rectum! From this week onwards, I must study, at least a chapter for each units. Never ask for more, one by one, slowly. Thursday, Friday, I got nothing to do on these days, though. I have to use them up properly, finish up the tutorial questions, revise previous lectures, prepare for next week lectures. So that, I'm free during weekends, I can do whatever I like and enjoy my weekends. OK, ON! THOSE ARE WHAT I'M GONNA DO!

I'm Scared!

Afraid, afraid of the dark! The deep deep darkness! I can sense that they are coming. It's in a bunch of them. I don't think I can stand it. I wish I do have the strength and fight, but it seems like I don't. I know everyone is with me, everyone is supporting me, with loves and hearts I received, they are enough. The only problem is me myself. Still, I can force myself to face it. Maybe, maybe one day. My heart will open, my mind will shine. For what I can do, is PRAY. MAY GOD BLESS ME♡♥

BAD BAD DAY!

A FREAKY SATURDAY! THE WORST DAY EVER! I should have stay at home and relax and sleep. It's too late, though.

Early morning, I got a wake up call from my adoptive mum. She said it's time to wake up and get ready, because we are leaving to Batu Niah soon. Woke up with a blank and clear brain, and get prepared.

JENG JENG JENG~ The journey begins! There were two transports, four person in one. Supposed, who are the four persons in the Tangerine Myvi? The owner of course, COLIN TING NEK BING, me myself and my adoptive mum, CHERLYN GAN, never forget, AUNT YII SU CHING. Exactly in noon, we started to head towards Batu Niah from Senadin. I got this feeling, I'm gonna die in a bath of birds and bats poops.

On our way, we got a phone call. Guess! A bad news or a good news? Too bad to tell, it was a BAD BAD NEWS! Our so called, the "KANCIL GROUP", something had gone wrong with their rented Kancil, one of the tyres blowout and burst. They were not even few miles away from Miri. We were already in the half way heading to Niah Cave. Normally, it takes an hour to reach there. Nevermind, we can wait, we seem to be that patient enough.

We reached Batu Niah, we stopped by at the food court and wait for the others to come. Time ticked, ticked tocked, tocked ticked. One hour waited, they weren't here yet. Honestly, I want to go back.

After the second hour, finally, they have reached. Thank God! We were almost there, just a few kilometers left.

Who knows, what is this thing doing in the middle of the road? A big huge rock! BING BONG BOOF~ What the hell, I couldn't believe we just did it. Drove through the ROCK! It's hurt! Really really hurt! Hold on, are you thinking about the rock or the car is hurt? Tell you what, you're wrong, my heart is actually the one that's hurt. Oouch!

What now? The car is totally injured. A big scar underneath and it's bleeding. I wish I can help, but too bad, I'm not a doctor. Sad. Everything has been ruined. So, it's ended up with "WE CAN'T GO TO NIAH CAVE". Returned to the rest stop and wait for rescuers.

First Day

First day? First day of what?