Follow Your Footsteps.

What can I say? You're the best person I have seen so far. It's so amazing that I'm getting to know you. With an open heart, I'm knowing the deep inside you.

Do you mind if I follow your footsteps? Maybe it's not gonna be that easy. It's going to be really hard, and no matter what I'm willing to work at it. Because I want you, forever. I wanna do the same job and the same things with you everyday until the world falls apart. Life is just strange, we never know what the future brings. Living day by day, I never thought I would be here standing right with you and I thank you a lot.

Shouldn't Be It

"If you love someone truly, you will never hurt them."

But I think that in love, people hurt their loved ones more than anyone else does. Just like what I did, I hurt you so much but still you make me think that I'm still worth to you.

When you love someone, you never mean to hurt them, I believe so. Maybe the matter is that, I'm weak and this will make me easily fall into the deepest problems by accident. Sometimes I think of something without meaning to and sometimes I will hurt you, without trying to.

As I care much about you and I love you, I should never hurt you again♥

Love The Now.

Stop worrying about how everything is going to turn out. Live one day at a time and appreciate what we have now. Better yet, make the most of every moment we have. Sometimes, it's good to have a big picture of how the future might be, but if we always living in the future, we will never enjoy the present in the way God wants us to be.

Love Without Hurt.

Love is not just a word, so don't simply propose your love to anyone, unless you truly mean it. But if you truly love someone, be brave and tell them that you love them. Once in a lifetime it's hard to find a person who touches not your heart but also your soul. And once in a lifetime if you are lucky you find someone as I have found my love. I never felt a love like this before. It’s a love like, it's hard to describe but something I have always hoped for. A love with friendship, humour and heart. It’s a bond so strong and I just hope it never breaks♥

Far Away From

Wondering how would it be when we are as far apart. I swear, wherever I go I will never forget the moment of bliss. Everyday I pray to God, I wish I could live longer because I want to spend every moment with you. I know someday, we might lose each other. But I will keep this in mind, "No matter what happens, I'll always be with you, forever."

I'm Defective.

It's no secret that I'm ugly, I'm stupid and I'm dumb. Considering myself as a defective person, I know I can still walk and I can still think but it's just that I'm not perfect enough.

I'm not perfect but I am still loved. How do I know this? Because God has not only told me that He loves me through His words, but He has demonstrated His love to me over and over and over again. He sent someone to love me, my family, my brothers, my sisters, my friends, He sent them into my life. Finally I understand, I belong to Him.

It Means A Lot To Me.

I'm happy to write this out loud, I want you to know, you are the one who can completely turn my world around. I would love to share with you the things that I've never shared with others. Everytime when something wonderful happens, I could never be patient to tell you about it. I truly believe, you are not embarrassed to cry with me when I'm hurting or laugh with me when I'm making a fool of myself. You never hurt my feelings or make me feel like I'm not good enough, but you always build me up and show me the things about myself that make me special and even beautiful. I can be myself and not worry about what you think of me because I believe you love me for who I am.

26th July 2011

What is it all about? The date, 26th July is the day when God sent me to this world and it's also the day when my mom suffered the pain. I guess you all know what I'm talking about, simple and straight - It's My Birthday!

I bet many people will ask, when is my birthday actually? 25th or 26th? I admit, I have tried to fool my friends. On my facebook profile, I listed there my birthday is on 25th but it's actually the next day. I was too bored, that's why. When people are bored, they start to think of something really weird, something that doesn't make sense. I do apologize if I've made anyone of you angry.

Honestly, I never thought anyone would remember my birthday. I was so touched when my bunch of lovely brothers and sisters, they celebrated my birthday with me. I know, you guys have tried so hard to give me surprises and seriously you guys did. I got tricked by you guys, I got fooled by you guys, I got splashed by you guys and thank you guys, I got presents from you guys.

On that day, I got shocked three times! It's THREE TIMES!!! Seriously, my heart was almost out from my chest. I know, you guys were happy seeing me hopping and screaming. Three times, the same reaction from me hopping and screaming. I don't know where should I hide my face because my neighbours saw that too.

Once again, THANK YOU VERY MUCH TO ALL OF YOU! YOU GUYS HAVE GIVEN ME THE BEST BIRTHDAY SURPRISES EVER, IT'S MEMORABLE AND I'LL NEVER FORGET! I LOVE YOU GUYS, Muackzzz~♥

Stupid Network Connection!

I was disconnected from the world for 5 days. Today, finally the internet connection is working. The first thing I'm gonna post is about 26th July 2011, an important day for me. I will never forget that day, every minute, every second, every hour of the day.

I'll tell you all about it in my next post, so stay tuned!

AM I a Bad Person?

I got few questions to all the people who know me.

Please answer me in an honest way.

I just want to know how you people think of me.

Am I a bad person?

What are my bad attitudes?

Am I annoying?

Did I ever make you angry?

Am I an eyesore to you?

Do you wish that I'm dead?

Kick Off to a New Semester!

Wow, I can't believe a new semester is starting already. This is an exciting time because at the beginning of this new semester, I have the opportunity to cut loose some of the bad habits I had in the past. No more social networking stuff during weekdays but a little excuse for me to have a little bit of chitchatting on MSN and my phone. The most important thing and it's markable - when there's time to study, remember the best thing to do is STUDY STUDY STUDY. Revise all the lecture notes and anything that I don't understand, please feel free to ask.

I should push myself to it, I know I can do it!

WAKE UP AARON JONAH,

IT'S TIME TO FIGHT!

Don't Be Afraid.

"Being afraid to get close to someone, because someday they might leave you."
Why are people afraid to love? I'm not just talking about the love as in love, but also the love between friends. I believe every people are afraid of being abandoned.

I understand the situation, where we as humans all want to be loved, want to be touched, want to have that closeness. But we are scared, we scared to open our hearts to let someone in, because we are sensitive to the fact that we could loose them.

All these fear are just the matter of toughness. We have to take the chance, be tough to take the risk, don't think of the negative side all the time. We just have to take that leap and jump right into that special someone's heart.

Speak It Out.

I'm happy because you're willing to share your feelings with me. I believe I'm not the simply random friend whom you picked to share your feelings with. You share your negative feelings with me because you trust me. Talk about trust, a trusted friend is someone who will not depart amid your sorrow and pain and who will help when you are down and out. I will always be there for you whenever you need me. Remember, you're not alone.

Bow and Sorry.

I hope everyone would accept my apology. All the time I was always thinking about myself, I never care how other people feel. I always thought that is the best way of solving the problem, but actually it isn't. I'm actually fooling myself and other people as well. This shows that I'm the stingy and hypocrite types of person. I bow to say sorry, I hope you people can forgive me.

I promise. I will never say anything like that again and I will never hurt the people that I love because if you love someone truly, you will never hurt them. ♥

I Wish

I wish everyone could forget about me and stay happy forever.

Stay Here Forever.

I HAVE MADE MY FINAL DECISION, I WON'T BE GOING TO PERTH NEXT YEAR!

After all, maybe it's not necessary for me to continue my study abroad. I've been thinking about this after I know my results. I tried to talk to my mom this evening, I told her my feelings. Then I mentioned about next year, I said I don't wanna go to Perth. Without any reason, I just don't wanna go anywhere. I know she wants me to get a more liberated study abroad experience so she wants me to go overseas. I really feel sorry for my parents because I feel like I'm useless, I couldn't be their 'dream son'.

I Failed My Finals

I thought I'll share this with the rest of the world because it will help me let some steam out and hopefully help with my temporary depression phase like I'm going through, same goes to those who also failed and are in the same boat as me.

I decided to roll up my sleeves and study hard for the next coming units. I'm gonna be serious in my studies and by serious I mean a good two hours a day and considerable time going through the slides and tutorial questions whenever I have the time to do so. By serious I mean giving up daily dinner gatherings with my friends, film series, movies and the most important thing - NO FACEBOOK!

To be honest, I still can't believe I failed this unit. I still remember I walked out of the exam hall the day of the exam with a smile on my face. For some reason, I believed I passed. Who knows, it turns out to be completely different. Is it my problem or the lecturer's problem?

Now, picture this with me. Yesterday was the big day, the day of results. The results were supposed to be out at 12AM midnight, the same day afternoon my friend told me there is a prediction way of knowing your results whether it's passed or not. I followed the steps and I got into the web. It was so nerve-wracking while browsing the page. Once the page showed, I saw I failed, it really hit me hard. Miserably.

I was with my brother, he is the first person who get to know my bad news. Whenever I feel depressed, he will always be there for me. Sometimes I do really think, maybe I shouldn't always share out my bad feelings. I have told seven people that I failed the same day evening.

My mom was the last person who get to know about my results. Via SMS I told her I failed one unit. She replied to my text, I will never forget what is the text about. She said, "No matter what, you are still my son. Mom loves you." I got this heart touching feeling whenever my mom says this to me and there will be tears coming out from my eyes. I feel ashamed of myself because I let my parents down and those who love me and who care about me. I wish there is someone who is willing to grab a knife and stab it through my heart or someone who is willing to slap me and scold me like I am a stupid idiot.

To add insult to injury, everybody I know they are either passed or they get to sit for supplementary. I was never exactly the nerd at school or university for the matter, barely even aced any exam. I'm the typical average student. Someone who would always do the bare minimum and will pass with an average of 50+ marks.

The good news is, that I learned my weak points, those areas that I was weak in. "FAILURE IS AN EVENT, NEVER A PERSON." I kinda love this phrase, it's introduced by KENT LEE MAN KIT. I try hard not to keep the word failure running in my head, when you see failure as a learning event, not a destination, it makes you smarter and faster. Hopefully.

Failing. Grappling. Moving on. Living More Wisely. Yes, it's not the end of the world!

By,
ronRon

We Always Fight.

I still remember when I was young, I mean really really young, during the time when I was still in primary school. As my current age, it's still considered as young, though. When I was young, my sister and I always fight for any reason, we can't pass through one day without getting into without at least one fight. For example, like who gets to sit in front of the car or who gets to take out the trash. She was always my servant, though. I know I'm a big bully brother, even now I still order her to do this and that. Hey, do bear in mind, that's her job because I pay her with my transparent cheque. JUST KIDDING.

I still remember, we especially fight over who gets the remote control and of course I usually win. You gotta learn some tricks with that. One thing, I always call her Fatty. A cute nickname for her. To be honest, she looks really fat, I always tell her she needs to lose some weight. Take proper balanced diet, go jogging with mom everyday, the more important thing DON'T ALWAYS "EAT, SLEEP, POOP!"

I know I gonna die if she sees this. Nevermind, I've get myself prepared. I will just lock myself in my room until the next day.

The 11th Day

Just wanted to share my story. Ever since I came back to Labuan, yesterday was the fifth time I went out with my besties, still it's countable. The same place everytime because that's the only place where Labuan people can hang out and I know there are these places called Memorial Park, Bird Park, Red Chimney, Maritime Museum, Marine Park and some other bullshit places, PLEASE DON'T WASTE YOUR TIME.

I discovered something nice, not sure whether you guys have ever tried it before. It's called "NASI PENYET". The name is kinda funny, the pronunciation of the word "penyet" it just sounds like a hen laying an egg. Back to the topic, nasi penyet is an indonesian cuisine where it's being served on a traditional wooden platter with this best ever sambal and the best ever crushed fried chicken. SERIOUSLY, IT'S DAMN DELICIOUS!

After the lunch, we went to the salon and get our hair cut. Guess what? Finally, my wish has come true, I have a bald and shiny head now. No one will recognize me :p

Cherish Every Moment.

All the time, I was hoping to have a long holiday but not this time. I really wish this semester break could just pass through in a quick time.

Every day, every night, I look at the photos we took together and I start to think of you guys. Flashing back to the past, it's quite a great moment back there. Where the laughter will long be remembered and we smile when sadness intrudes. You guys will never know how much I love you guys and how much I miss you guys.

I promised myself I will cherish every moment, every minute, every second we gonna spend in next semester. I hope every scene can be captured in my heart because I know one day we will leave each other and won't able to meet again maybe. By the time, I'm gonna miss you guys really really much. It will be like being in a river of thorns.

American Television Series

I've been waiting for such a long time. When are these series gonna be released?!! Please, don't think that I'm the kind of series psychopathic guy. Seriously, I'm not, but I do admit there is a bit of crazy symptom carried in my mind, though. JUST JOKING.

Here I would like to share,
Forget about the two series, GHOST WHISPERER and NO ORDINARY FAMILY. They are officially announced to be cancelled due to some reasons, blah blah blah~ Honestly, I love these two series very much, I do really hope the ABC Studio will continue to renew the series shows. To show my support, I will watch all the series that published by ABC Studio. (That's impossible :p)

Vampire Diaries, the CW Television Network has renewed the series for third season, will released on 15th September 2011.

Supernatural, as announced earlier by CW, the seventh season will be released on 23rd September, 2011.

Glee Season 3 will premiere on 20th September 2011.

The Walking Dead Season 2 will be premiered on 31st October 2011 which is on Halloween.

WISH YOU GUYS HAPPY WAITING n' ROTTING!

All Out of Love - Westlife ft. Delta Goodrem

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile and my heart
For times when my life seems so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

[Chorus:]
I 'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I 'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from this long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone

[Chorus:]
I 'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I 'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?

[Chorus: 3x]
I 'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I 'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

A While In Dreamland

Have you ever had a dream that just didn't feel like a dream, where you wish it's really happening? Of course I did. I had an epic lucid dream last night and I wish I could just stay in the dream forever.

Love My Life♥

It's the end of the first semester again, and here comes the Holiday. How am I going to spend this holiday, though?

For past few weeks my sleeping patterns have taken a few turns. I used to get a good night's sleep from about 10pm to 3pm on a regular basis, but not anymore. So I promised myself that I'm gonna have this routine go on during this holiday.

Second, it's all about my skin and my face. GOSH, you can see deep dark circles and two heavy eye bags hanging under my eyes. I would say I used to be ugly, but now, it's even worse. What am I gonna do? Thinking of whether a good night's sleep will help me to cure this problem. There's another way, keep doing facial everyday keeps my skin younger. ON!

Third, honestly I think that I am little bit fat. This afternoon, I just ate five big glutinous rice dumplings. For goodness sack! From next Monday onwards, I'll go to the gym to do some workouts. I wish there is someone to guide me, though. Maybe my iPad App can help. HAHAHA :D

Lastly, this is for my brothers and sisters, I hope you guys will enjoy your holidays and do miss me as I do. The time passes so quickly, but still I'm gonna miss you guys so badly. Muackzzz~~~♥♥♥

Put Your Hands Up in the Sky!

Wow Man, listen to the beat, it's bumpin'! I'm gonna rule the night! So call me the King of the Night! SHOUT, SHOUT, SHOUT IT OUT LOUD!

Learn to Let Go!

YAY! Finally, hell week is almost over and I have time to post this one. Honestly, I have a lot a lot of things to tell. I know I've been very emotional the last few days. I'm sorry if I made everyone worry. I admit, I've caused a lot of troubles and this might hurt someone's feelings. I really want to apologize to everyone here, Gomen Nasai~

Well, I should forget about all the bad things that happened in the past. I would say, whatever happens in the past, should stay in the past. I should live happily and enjoy my lovely life with my families and friends. This is what I've learned,

"NEVER LET THE SADNESS OF PAST RUIN THE HAPPINESS OF PRESENT. STAY POSITIVE AND KEEP MOVING!"

I Don't Deserve.

Please, don't treat me so well. I don't deserve to be treated this way. I'm just a piece of shit, so you guys should just ignore me!

I'm Not Strong Enough.

I can feel the weight of the world and it's time to escape from the world. I want to leave this place, run away from here and never come back. I try to forget everything but it's just hard to do. It's not as easy as a twitch. I don't wanna stay alone but this is the best way by locking myself in the room and don't eat or drink until my tears become dry. I'm lying on this lonely bed, looking up at the ceiling and thinking of life. I want to be free for once and I just close my eyes and I tell myself to listen, tomorrow is gonna be a good day. The next day I open my eyes, noticing I'm still here trapped in the past, it's still struggling in my head. I'm tired, tired of living. I may not have it worst than most but it's bad enough for me. I'm not strong enough to handle this.

Like now, what the most I can, I'm gonna finish my writing and feel like there's no tomorrow.

I Won't Let It Happen.

WE NEED YOUR HELP!

Dear Papa,

I thank You for this day. I'm blessed because You are forgiving Papa and an understanding Papa. You have done so much for me and You keep on blessing me. Forgive me this day for everything I've done, said and thought those were not pleasing to you. I ask now for Your forgiveness Papa.

Continue to bless me that I may be a blessing to others. Keep me uplifted that I may have words of encouragement for other. I pray for those who are lost and can't find their way.

I believe that Papa changes people and things. I pray for all my sisters and brothers. Tomorrow is the day, I pray that Papa would give them another chance to complete the interview session. I pray for strength, confidence and well preparation to stay in their hearts that they are out of stress and all their hopes may come true. Whatever happens, don't give up!

Also, Papa, help me to focus on my studies. I need the strength to handle the pressure that I feel and I need the ability to keep an appropriate perspective on it all. Help me to keep in mind what is really important even as I focus all my time and energy on this coming exams.

For my family, I pray for peace, love and joy in them and all their needs are met.

This is my prayer.

In Jesus' Name, Amen.

Every Day Is a New Day!

Today's a new day, and there is no sunshine,
Nothing but clouds,and it's dark in my heart
and it feels like a cold night.

Today's a new day, where are my blue skies,
where is the love and the joy that you promised me
you tell me it's alright.

What's the first song you listen to after you wake up?

Everyday is a new day and I'm thankful for every breath I take. Each and every day, let us start fresh and new. Whatever is behind us will stay behind us, and whatever is ahead will eventually come.

Each and every day brings good and bad. It offers great opportunity as well. The chance to turn into a new leaf, make new decisions, do new things. Each and everyday also gives you the chance to keep whatever the good things you have and appreciate it by enjoying it to the fullest.

So I decided to come into the new day with a fresh mind and a fresh start.

the End of the World???

What a funniest thing I've ever heard. This is such a joke, though. The news spread around the world, saying that May 21st, 2011 is the Judgement Day. Why do we have to suffer for 5 months of misery, I don't get that. Because we are not a believer? If you believe this, you know, that Jesus does come, that you will have rapture that means you're taking up to heaven. These are not true! Bear in mind, I'm writing this without any offence, it's just that I can't really believe what are those christians thinking about. I would say that,

"No one knows about that day or hour, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father."

Totally Blank!

How could this happen to me??? FUUUUCCCK!!! This is my first time, I handed in my paper, leaving the question blank. I can't believe I'm such a fool. Stupid dumbass... For this second, I really hope there is someone to comfort me, not telling me the same thing I hear everyday, someone that would understand me and won't put me down, someone that is willing to lend me their shoulder to lie on, and more importantly, someone to embrace me when I'm feeling down.

Luckily, I have this bunch of friends who always treat me like a brother. Though, we only know each other for a short period of time, but it's really like we are all telepathic. It's such lovely to have this bunch of lovely brothers. THANK GOD! All the time I've been hoping that I have a so called biological elder brother.

Wish to Help.

This is the first time I see his face covered with sadness. As a brother, I couldn't even do anything. I wish I could help, but I really don't know how, so I would just pray to God and ask Papa to lead him and bless him.

Maybe it has been a hard day for him. Sometimes, it's really hard to explain. I would use my words to describe, humans are born to face challenges. If you failed the first time, nevermind, try it harder the second time. Have faith in you, I believe you can do it and I believe God will always make a better way for us, Amen.

A Tear Dripped.

What the hell am I doing? Staying up late at night rushing for assignment and preparing for tomorrow's presentation. It's all about last minute work. Even now, I still haven't get over it and understand what are required for this stupid damn assignment. I feel like I'm so stupid and brainless enough. I couldn't even help my group mates...

A Brighter Day.

Lately, as you’ve seen, I’m almost nonexistent on the very blog I share most of the time, but all for good reason. I’ve been busy. I’ve been rushing some assignments recently to meet the deadline, and it’s put a lot of stress on me. I have plenty of assignments left to complete for this week, so I’m not feel relaxed anytime soon. I’m thankful for my brothers, they brought me out to golden day. Seriously, this is the first time we've spent a whole day together in a while. If you're asking me whether I'm having a good day, I'll nod my head like YEAH!

Shameful "Black Wednesday"

Damn, I don't know where to hide my face. It's so embarrassed! Now, I feel like I want to dig a hole and stick my head in it.

This afternoon, me and a couple of my friends, we went to this rest station called Zi Pang Gu. Here the story began. Do you know some rest stop or coffee house they have this so-called "read n' mark order"? Something like where you read the menu and mark or tick the notes for order. Get what I mean? OK, so I wanted to order chocolate waffles and I marked the list, 250 (the code for waffles). When I called the waitress to come and fetch my orders, she did though but guess what? She looked at the list and asked, "What is 250? No such code as 250 for food." I was like HAH??? Are you sure? So I checked on the menu again and WHAT! THERE IS REALLY NO 250 EXCEPT FOR 153 IS FOR WAFFLES! THEN, WHERE THE HELL I SAW 250? I asked my friend, did you just told me 250? She said, HELL NO! OK, my bad! We kept on thinking why, where did I see this 250? ... Here comes the broken shell, 153 Waffles 250. 250 is actually the price = =' That's what I saw. This is the first embarrassment.

Next, our next station to The Body Shop. Just a visit, though because I'm holding an empty wallet and so I'm not supposed to buy anything again from TBS. We stepped into the shop and I saw this lady her back facing us, she was at the counter doing her job wrapping a basket present. So, I thought she is my friend. My evil thoughts came and I wanted to surprise her. I walked slowly towards her on my tip toes and I jumped to her side and BOO!

Just A Dream!

YEEP YEEP HURRAY! Finally, I'm back in Miri. My friends came to pick me up at the airport and after that we went for a dinner together. What's next?!! We enjoyed singing karaoke at The Terminal and I really enjoy the night. Such a happy moment, I love it...

*ring ring ring*

*ring ring ring*

*ring ring ring*

GOSH, is that my alarm?!! First question came to mind, what is this thing doing here in the karaoke room. Am i dreaming or what?!! OH NO, everything is just a dream. What a sad case~ Off the alarm with my eyes closed. I slowly blinked my eyes open and glanced around me. I noticed I was lying in my bed. I sat up and looked at the clock, the hour hand pointed at eleven. It's ELEVEN, It's ELEVEN, It's ELEVEN...

I went downstairs and I realized there was no-one home. Walked into the kitchen looking for breakfast. Guess what I saw?!! A pot of "FO CHOK TONG SHUI". It's there calling my name, AARON JONAH CHIN~ That's just lovely, Ma Shi Da~

After that I drove myself to mom's office. I know I won't be doing my assignments if I stay at home. I was like spending long hours in the office chair staring at the computer, but at least I found a few journals which to support my Microeconomics assignment.

This evening, I went jogging with mom. It's been a week since the last time I sweat. WOOHOO! I sweat a lot. Always have this in mind, sweat does generate happy hormones :D

If We Never Met!

How would my life be if I never met you guys? It would be worse, I guess... and I would have drive these roads paved with loneliness. Seriously, I really appreciate you guys whom do care about me, whom do shine my life, whom do bring me out of my loneliness.

This is how I feel. It's nice spending my days off with someone like you, someone to lean one, someone to count on... someone to tell on! It doesn't seem to matter how much time has elapsed if they had you smiling since the day you guys met.

The words carved in my heart, "I WILL NEVER LOSE YOU GUYS!!!"

A day trip to Bintulu.

My friends, everyone is going back to their hometowns. What a sad case because I've to stay here alone until this Saturday. Just a few hours passed, and I've started to miss them so badly. Urrrgh~ Nevermind, I believe the time does fly by fast.

Seriously, I gotta conquer my loneliness by making myself go out. So, we decided to go Bintulu for one day trip. There were six of us, my foster parents of course, my aunt, my grandfather and my grand grandfather.

On the way to Bintulu, how should i describe the road?!! It's really really really like a roller coaster. Can you imagine how bumpy and jumpy is that?!! OH DAMN!

I ever been to Bintulu once, it was two years ago when I was still in foundation. I still remember they have the so called "Tasty Fried Chicken Claws" and "Tasty Chut Chut". I told myself, I'm gonna lick the plates until they are squeaky clean. *sounds like a starving maniac*

After everything, I felt tired because it was a long journey. Who knows, when I was planning to go to sleep, there were these people who are really really into poker, they asked me not to sleep but play poker. GOSH! Even if I fall asleep, they will throw the chips on me and ask me to continue the game. Please, let me sleep!!!

The next day, all thanks to Colin. He tried very hard just to wake me up. Want to know how? It's like WHAT THE HELL! He asked Bobby (his adorable mixed-breed poodle) to jump on my back. I always sleep on my tummy and my back faces up, that's why! I do consider that's an early morning massage, though. Nah~

What about breakfast? Too bad, we didn't have the chance to eat the best Laksa in Bintulu.

In the afternoon, we then headed back to Miri. I'm back to the lonely world again. Nevermind, as I said, the time flies by fast. Again, I would like to wish my friends, wish them have a great holiday and see you guys after the free week. Do miss me much K! Love ya♥

Brothers? Freres?

"A brother is a friend God gave you; A friend is a brother your heart chose for you."
Saw this on my friend Kent's blog and I finally understand what it means.

Couldn't Stop Laughing!!!

Midterms are over! It's time to Rock n' Roll! But wait, what's the plan for tonight?

A bunch of us are gonna storm Sushi King Card RM2 Bonanza.

The Day Before Exams.

Not much time left. I have an exam tomorrow which I’ve actually studied reasonably hard for over the past few days and although today has largely been spent in the library, I would have felt incredibly guilty had I spent two hours on cheerleading.

I'm really gonna burn the midnight oil.

FOUR-EYES!

I'm totally a four-eyed freak. Nah~ I’m not talking about being a mutant or some type of alien creature. I’m talking about being someone who has to wear glasses and it's something I consider both a blessing and a curse.

Bring Me Out Of Here.

What's wrong with me today? Staying at home the whole day without doing anything? What's going on? Should I be worried about tomorrow's exam? Should I be studying now? I'm feeling incredibly emotional. My mind tends to wander, something bad, something negative. Can anyone tell me, why am I a creation? Why does it happen to me? I mean it's me not anything else. It's been really hard for me to live and stay in this world. I'd rather die than live in a world where I have to suffer a lot like hell.

To be honest, I really hope there is someone out there willing to listen to me, maybe help, at least a call will do. I know I might be annoying, and some of you might hate me very much. Nevermind, you guys can just ignore me, like I'm a hobo who lives on the side of the road.

Deadly Month!

I feel like I can't get enough air and I never been this worried before. Please, give me a break?!! After the first finance quiz, there's still some more to go. Can you see there, my calender? It's really like a hellish month, DAMN! I'm gonna study hard, yes I will. Spend my weekends study, study, study n' study... You will see me like a freaky, nerdy, geeky dork. Just for the month. Hopefully, I won't gone mad.

"Don't Let Stress Wear Me Out!", engraved in my mind.

The Day After April Fool's

Call me mean, call me a person who has no sense of humor, I don't care. I absolutely hate April Fools Day. Why? Because many people like to play rude, crude jokes. Some of them are not even that funny. I feel that it's just not nice. Well, I prefer not to say anymore about.

31st MARCH 2011.

Had a great workout with Andy and Kent this morning. Thank you very much guys, for bringing me to the gym. Honestly, I really appreciate you guys support. At first, I thought hitting the gym is something hard and scary. But after the training, my mind twist. I've fallen in love with the fitness exercise. That's lovely. I'm looking forward to the next workout, though. CAN'T WAIT!

Before that, I would like to apologize for causing any trouble. Sometimes, I feel like I'm useless and I have to admit that I'm suck. So, please do forgive me.

Also, I had quite a lot of fun today, hanging out with friends, chatting and eating. Especially when I was at the party, Kent's 20th Birthday Party! It was AWESOME! Just don't know how to describe. The party was full of laughter. In common, when you're seeing everyone else laughing, automatically you will start to join the party and start laughing yourself. And, seeing people laugh brings joy to my heart.

Once again, I wish Kent Lee,

Happy Birthday n' Have A Blast!!!
&

Thank You My Friends For The Day!!!

GROUP STUDY!

Do you like to sit alone in a quiet place pondering on the solutions in your study? Or you would favor discussing the subjects with several friends? Some people choose to study alone, enjoying peaceful surrounding without being disturbed; others, however, would rather join a group of people, sharing different ideas with them. As far as I am concerned, I prefer both, depending on what kind of situation.

Just like today, I can't believe I just did my revision in a group with my friends. This is what I call "GROUP STUDY"! That's AWESOME! Though, there would be a little bit of chit-chat, but that is good. What I mean is, sometimes you'll get bored if you keep on reading the same thing without giving yourself a break.

What I would say is, we should do this more often. Honestly, I love group study very much^^

Droopy eyelids, heavy eyes, tired or stoned looking.

Hello guys, I've got an odd and very annoying symptom not sure if it's related to social anxiety, Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) or something else. No matter how well I rest, my eyes get heavy and droopy at times especially when I'm out around people. I recently noticed this when I was looking at my face in public in a mirror. I look like kinda stoned or very tired because my eyelids look half closed. It seems like kinda droopy eyelids. I'm guessing this is happening when I don't get enough sleep or maybe I sleep too much.

Whatever the cause is, it's very annoying and depressive. Fortunately I'm not a very pessimistic guy, otherwise I'd be dead by now. Hehe~

Has anyone had this issue? Do you have an idea what this is about? It would be nice to hear your ideas or experiences. Best wishes and good luck guys.

SMILEY SATURDAY♥

I thought today would be another boring Saturday. As usual, every Saturday morning, I'll go to campus for cheer training. Before I go, I ate a green apple as to pristine clean my intestine. Just don't know why, I was so excited this morning. Maybe because of my happy hormones.

The best part of the day. The Gathering for C.C.C's members. I would call them brothers and sisters. I actually felt the warm in my heart. It's like how wonderful it is when you and your friends are gathered around, having dinner, playing cards, watching movies and so. More one, I'm so glad to meet you guys, especially those who are from the my hometown. Do you know how lovely it is when you are meeting someone who speaks the same language? They are just like your family.

Time flies, time passes. I hope there will be another gathering. Though, there will be an event held on this coming Saturday and Sunday, but too bad, I can't attend. So sad.

Seriously, I'm gonna miss their laughter♥

Doomsday? Or Just a Restless Planet?

Belly Burst!

Help me, please... someone help me! I feel like I'm anorexic. It's so scary. I don't wanna be like this, and who honestly want to carry this creepy homo disease. Ever since about two weeks ago, I've been losing 1kilogram per week. WTH! It happened to be abnormal. Something in my tummy, rolling and moving and tunneling. Seriously, I want to gain weight. I've tried to eat a lot a lot of food, junk food, fast food and everything as long as it is edible. But, it turns out that, I have this feeling, the fear, I'm afraid of taking to much of it. I know I really need more food on my bones and stuff, too bad... I can't take too much of it, compared to last time, I can actually eat 3 McDonald's Spicy Chicken McDeluxe Burgers at once.

So please, can anyone help me?!! Guide me the proper way of having a proper diet, not to lose weight but gain weight.

So lonely...

My heart is so empty and it's filled with darkness. I don't know how to express it but I do want to type out what's my exact feeling. I never know this gonna happen to me. It's all about today, the "DARK THURSDAY". I was staying at home the whole day, without going anywhere, not even outside my room. When I woke up, it's nearly evening. All my housemates were in campus, so no one at home except for me. Just suddenly, everything blackout and it's dark. For a second, I thought it's just a small matter, it won't be long. As time ticked away second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour, I started to think of something strange. I wasn't afraid of the dark, but I did matter about staying at home alone in the dark. I was so emotional, the devil been playing tricks on my mind. Should there be anyone who really cares about, at least a call, at least a call will do. I wanted to call but I don't know why, something wrong with my phone. I can't call out, even worst, there was a stranger kept calling me. I was scared, really really scared. Alone in the dark, what am I supposed to do? I need a friend... a hug... someone to talk... a companion... :'(

Dear Muscles~

Dear Muscles,

I'm really sorry. From the bottom of my heart, I would say, I didn't mean to hurt 'you' that way. I know it's really hard for 'you' to accept the pain. Please, it's only twice a week. I know 'you' can do it, I know 'you' will get use to it. BE TOUGH! BE STRONG! Today's pain, it will heal soon, just a few days time. Trust me, it will! Do remember the phrase, "NEVER SAY NEVER!" KEEP IT UP!

SAY NO! NO!

I haven't revised at all, ever since the semester started. GOSH! I shouldn't be wasting my time fooling around or keeping myself at home like the poop waiting to come out from the rectum! From this week onwards, I must study, at least a chapter for each units. Never ask for more, one by one, slowly. Thursday, Friday, I got nothing to do on these days, though. I have to use them up properly, finish up the tutorial questions, revise previous lectures, prepare for next week lectures. So that, I'm free during weekends, I can do whatever I like and enjoy my weekends. OK, ON! THOSE ARE WHAT I'M GONNA DO!

I'm Scared!

Afraid, afraid of the dark! The deep deep darkness! I can sense that they are coming. It's in a bunch of them. I don't think I can stand it. I wish I do have the strength and fight, but it seems like I don't. I know everyone is with me, everyone is supporting me, with loves and hearts I received, they are enough. The only problem is me myself. Still, I can force myself to face it. Maybe, maybe one day. My heart will open, my mind will shine. For what I can do, is PRAY. MAY GOD BLESS ME♡♥

BAD BAD DAY!

A FREAKY SATURDAY! THE WORST DAY EVER! I should have stay at home and relax and sleep. It's too late, though.

Early morning, I got a wake up call from my adoptive mum. She said it's time to wake up and get ready, because we are leaving to Batu Niah soon. Woke up with a blank and clear brain, and get prepared.

JENG JENG JENG~ The journey begins! There were two transports, four person in one. Supposed, who are the four persons in the Tangerine Myvi? The owner of course, COLIN TING NEK BING, me myself and my adoptive mum, CHERLYN GAN, never forget, AUNT YII SU CHING. Exactly in noon, we started to head towards Batu Niah from Senadin. I got this feeling, I'm gonna die in a bath of birds and bats poops.

On our way, we got a phone call. Guess! A bad news or a good news? Too bad to tell, it was a BAD BAD NEWS! Our so called, the "KANCIL GROUP", something had gone wrong with their rented Kancil, one of the tyres blowout and burst. They were not even few miles away from Miri. We were already in the half way heading to Niah Cave. Normally, it takes an hour to reach there. Nevermind, we can wait, we seem to be that patient enough.

We reached Batu Niah, we stopped by at the food court and wait for the others to come. Time ticked, ticked tocked, tocked ticked. One hour waited, they weren't here yet. Honestly, I want to go back.

After the second hour, finally, they have reached. Thank God! We were almost there, just a few kilometers left.

Who knows, what is this thing doing in the middle of the road? A big huge rock! BING BONG BOOF~ What the hell, I couldn't believe we just did it. Drove through the ROCK! It's hurt! Really really hurt! Hold on, are you thinking about the rock or the car is hurt? Tell you what, you're wrong, my heart is actually the one that's hurt. Oouch!

What now? The car is totally injured. A big scar underneath and it's bleeding. I wish I can help, but too bad, I'm not a doctor. Sad. Everything has been ruined. So, it's ended up with "WE CAN'T GO TO NIAH CAVE". Returned to the rest stop and wait for rescuers.

First Day

First day? First day of what?

Bag Pack Pay!

You mean a lot to me♥

It's hard to describe my feeling now, kinda sad, kinda excited, kinda happy, kinda funny...

Who wants to date me?

Phewit~ It's really the day, the day when all the people are in love ♥. Let's shout "HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY♥♥♥"

It's killing me!

please please please!!! GO AWAY!!! I'm sick of you!!! I really suffered!

Rabbit rabbit, hop hop!

Hop Hop, it's the year of Rabbit! Happy Lunar New Year everyone, a new year, new life, new destiny! Here's wishing everyone a Happy Rabbit Year! Let's all hoppity hop to the bank with fat checks. Good health, peace and prosperity to all^^

A lot a lot of FOOD!

OMG! Today is the Chinese New Year Eve! The last day of Tiger Year! WOOHOO~ I bet everyone has enjoyed their dinner very well and ate a lot. Me, guess what! I can't imagine. It's not even Chinese New Year yet, I ate a lot a lot of things. This morning, one bowl of cereal, half pack of kampong fried rice, 5 pieces of popiah, and then afternoon, i ate 1 roti canai and 1 ABC and 1 cendol kacang. Just now, dinner time again. Sad! Sorry Mr. Tummy.

I can't wait!

Tell you what, this morning when i woke up, i felt something strange. I can't see anything. So, I went into the toilet and looked into the mirror. GUESS WHAT!!! I'M BLIND!!! SERIOUSLY!!! Lucky me, it's just my contact lenses. I was shocked, that's my habit! I wear contact lenses when I'm sleeping. Don't judge me K! I'm not weird! But, who knows, my contact lenses dropped out. I kept looking around, the floor, the basin, at last, I found them on my bed, too bad! They broke into pieces. I guess it happened when I was sleeping. It's not even 3 months, sigh~

Today!!! The first day of February! New day, new month!!! I CAN'T WAIT!!! I'm waiting for a lot of things. 24 days left and I'm going back to Miri. I MISS THEM SO MUCH!!! Ouw~~~ 13 days left, and here comes the Valentine's Day. 2 days left, and it's Chinese New Year!!! WOOHOO~ I can't wait to gamble!!! GOSH!!! And of course, ANG PAO!!! OMG OMG!!! I'm steaming^^

We Met Again

ByeBye 'P'

Nothing to be proud of actually, just to share that. I've dropped my 'P' license. That's great,

He got sold out!

My beloved Honda Accord, I'm gonna miss you so much! This afternoon, when my dad came back for lunch, he told me a sad news, nah~ you know it. HE SOLD MY HONDA!!! Seriously, I was gonna cry.
They way he told me, "Boy, you know what? Just now, Uncle Ben bought the car."
But, actually I knew it for month. He ever told me that he's gonna sell it. Nevermind, I do understand the phrase: OUT WITH THE OLD, IN WITH THE NEW! You got what I mean? hahahaD HOPEFULLY!

I bought a movie this afternoon. The Kidnapper! The singapore and malaysia combined producers movie. For such a longtime, I was looking for this movie. Finally I found it, so excited! Here, this is the cover page,

If you wanna watch, don't be shy to borrow the CD from me. ^^

Last one, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BIG FAT SIS!!!