I kept this for so long and i never wanna share it! But it keeps hurting me and being an eyesore, you wouldn't know how it hurts, I can feel like i'm guilty or something. Everytime i pray for it to go away, but still it stays in my mind, it's like a seal on my heart! Today, i'm gonna split out my words.
YOU & ME! it's like how greatful it is, we both are friends. The first time, we know each other, i was the one who tried to begin our relationship! THANK GOD WE HAVE MET! Since that day, we have been very close, a very very close relationship, it's just like brother and sister. We laughed together, we cried together, we ate together, we shared our own feelings, and even we slept together! I'm a kind of moody people and sometimes i do love to say something that really hurts your feeling, but you do never care and you won't try to rebel. This makes me think of you are like an ANGEL! This is funny, isn't it! I started telling you that you should change, by HOW? We taught you, you should be brave and fight back, and sometimes you should learn how to reject people when they are needing your help. Eventhough you're busy or out of ability to help, you will always say yes, you could. That's why, i think that she's like an ANGEL!
But who knows, do you remember that day, when we were having our brunch outside with other friends, we talked about "I asked her to help me to buy something, it's not just a thing, it's a lot, though"??? you told me your sister said I'm so choosy or whatever, as long as it does mean that i'm making your life difficult, this makes me mad about it! When i was asking you to help me to buy those thingy thingy, i did say if it's inconvenience, you could tell me, so that i won't asked for your help. Maybe it was just an misunderstanding. I'm sorry, that day i was really mad, eventhough i admit i did ask you to help me, but the words your sister said were making me mad! duh~ it was just a pinch!
But another when we were chatting in MSN, you suddenly told me that i have threaten you as if you're not my friend. Oh dear! I'm really sorry about it! I never thought that would happen! I admit i always bully you, be specific, (bully as in making fun on you), but these were just a joke! We are close, that's why i think that there shouldn't be a "mind to" figuration in it. I hope you do understand my feelings. You know what i mean, if someone who are very close to me, I will treat him or her like very very close that i don't you will care what i say something funny as in really funny, a joke about you! Honestly, I really care about you as in your life, your past! Everyday I pray for you, wish that you aren't that weak, and pray that the relationship you have will be blessed. I really love that you as my friend! After these days, there is a gap between us, everytime we meet, i can feel that your eyes are avoiding me. (I hope it's not i think). My phone, inbox, before these, my inbox is full of your message, our conversation, but now your name is not in there. Still, i'm waiting for your call and message.
Today, you said something that change my thoughts. It proves that you're still concern about i'm a boy and you're a girl. (it sounds better than man and woman). It seems that everything is just my own preferences. Once again, i wanna say that i'm sorry! I'm very very sorry for what i have done! So sorry. If there is a warp portal, i wish i could travel back the time to fix up everything. I'm so sorry that my appearance has ruined your life!
New Year! New Life! Everything New!!! Here comes the year 2011. What comes in your mind??? OH NO!!! THE DOOMSYEAR IS GETTING CLOSER!!! Duh~ just forget about it. If you believe then you are a totally dumbass. We should enjoy the year and spend the days happily, with your friends, your families, your enemies, your lovers and blablabla! So guys,
NONONO!!! you couldn't be dead! It's like how many decades dy, i've been losing you! gosh, this couldnt be!
